Day 15 of living in Charleston. It hasn't been easy, but I think I'm slowly assimilating. I've gotten used to "dipping" and I've grown accustomed to the twists and curves they call streets here. I've become a better runner, and I've gotten into the routine of things. Although, despite me getting used to it, I've come to realize this place is not for me. I don't want to go to a college where I have to constantly doubt the reasons I'm there. I want to go to college where I feel motivated and am happy to be there. A lot of the kids that come here have not yet matured, but me, I'm way past that point. I know who I am, and I don't have to prove anything to anyone. I still have some time here, but I can't wait to go home.
I have a lot of thinking to do.
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Monday, July 15, 2013
18
I turned 18 yesterday. According to my government I'm an adult now. My parents are no longer legally responsible for me. I can buy tobacco and tobacco related products now. I can gamble now. I can go to a strip club now. I can pay for sex in Nevada now. I can vote now. I can be drafted now. Of course this is all within a legal context. My age never really stopped me from doing anything before, it's just now the government approves of it. I really don't feel any different.
They say the minutes crawl, but the years have wings. I couldn't agree more.
I've dropped a lot of my beliefs now.
I think I'm falling off of a cliff of security, and now I just don't know what to do with myself.
This is 18? I've put a lot behind me. I accomplished a few things. I've had multiple jobs, multiple cars, I graduated high school, I'm currently enrolled in college, and yet I still have no fucking clue as to what I really want.
Anyways, I can safely say that this world is a big place, opportunity galore, and it's time for me to experience some new things and accomplish a few more goals.
My bucket list is slowly shrinking.
They say the minutes crawl, but the years have wings. I couldn't agree more.
I've dropped a lot of my beliefs now.
I think I'm falling off of a cliff of security, and now I just don't know what to do with myself.
This is 18? I've put a lot behind me. I accomplished a few things. I've had multiple jobs, multiple cars, I graduated high school, I'm currently enrolled in college, and yet I still have no fucking clue as to what I really want.
Anyways, I can safely say that this world is a big place, opportunity galore, and it's time for me to experience some new things and accomplish a few more goals.
My bucket list is slowly shrinking.
Monday, July 1, 2013
Pheonix
This is cool. I think I'm slowly starting to become more of a blogger. I'm probably going to look back on these writings when I'm old and gray and reminisce over the memories that it brings.
I got carded trying to buy a blunt today, I thought it was total bullshit. I'm literally 12 days away from being 18 and besides that I've been buying tobacco & alcohol for a long time now, usually without any problems. Hell I've bought way worse than that before. Guns are cheap on the south side. If I really wanted to I'm sure I could buy the city itself. (One day haha) My point is that some guy carded me for trying to buy a Vega and I thought it was a very upsetting. All I did was go to the liquor store a couple blocks down, and that guy was cool, but still I thought it was ridiculous that we have these laws that just serve as a detriment to the people of this city.
Anyhow, I think I'm going to start making some real change in my life. I leave to Charleston in a couple days. This trip is going to be a trip lol
It's weird how I can be so observant of my attitude and outlook on life and how it changes depending on a variety of different factors. Fuck it, apathy is taking control right now.
I got carded trying to buy a blunt today, I thought it was total bullshit. I'm literally 12 days away from being 18 and besides that I've been buying tobacco & alcohol for a long time now, usually without any problems. Hell I've bought way worse than that before. Guns are cheap on the south side. If I really wanted to I'm sure I could buy the city itself. (One day haha) My point is that some guy carded me for trying to buy a Vega and I thought it was a very upsetting. All I did was go to the liquor store a couple blocks down, and that guy was cool, but still I thought it was ridiculous that we have these laws that just serve as a detriment to the people of this city.
Anyhow, I think I'm going to start making some real change in my life. I leave to Charleston in a couple days. This trip is going to be a trip lol
It's weird how I can be so observant of my attitude and outlook on life and how it changes depending on a variety of different factors. Fuck it, apathy is taking control right now.
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